Right now…I’m not feeling like “anything.”
When I was an angsty teenager, I was encouraged by the most influencial adult in my life to never give up. I absolutely tattooed that on my heart and mind. I was never going to be a quitter!
The problem was I never felt like I fit in. I related far more to the toys on Misfit Island.
No matter how hard I tried, I wasn’t very good at much. Just sort of mediocre. I watched my peers and my family apply themselves and succeed. Just like my experience with the Miss Teenage Columbus Pageant: I never won…but congratulations, you’re fourth runner up.
Most of the time I was able to paste on a smile, and pretend that it was ok. It wasn’t the losing I minded as much as I just wanted to know why I didn’t feel like I succeeded.
I decided to do a little research. My SEO question was: can an ESFP be a writer? ESFP is my Myers Briggs Personality Type: Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving. I found a blog and an excellent post that helped me move from under-the-basement-discouragement to serandipitous joy! (So I feel more like the little guy in the next picture.
Bottom line: I needed to be reminded that I don’t have to try and squeeze into someone else’s box or expectation or definition.
I am a communicator. Sometimes I write, but I also speak. I get to the message, but I don’t have to take the same route as others do. I wouldn’t require someone else to meander down my oft times disjointed and crazy path…so I need to be aware of trying to fit into someone else’s box.
Golly, I feel so free right now. That should be our mindset, too. Figure out how we best achieve our goals and go for them. Others may be able to discipline themselves into success, but you’ll probably find me skipping down the road to mine. I won’t get there fast…but that’s okay by me.
Pot of Manna 